it all comes back to this

it's difficult to say whether this year as been disastrous or beautiful. maybe both at the same time, and yes, that is possible. no doubt this year has been filled with memories i will remember in the future years too come. 2009 has been a year of growth and discoveries;

1. i have found a place in my heart which is concent with who i am.
2. i appreciate the colour of the grass, the song of a bird.
   
3. time spent speculating is time wasted.
   
4. beauty has to flourish in the light. no more hiding.
5. my family are beautiful.
6. proved i can survive without a theme tune.
7. it's true, the little things are worth a whole lot more.
   
8. my head and heart are almost in tandem
9. my hearts on my sleeve.
10. most of the things above, are there with the support of a very special person, and i thank her with my heart. love you holll :)
    

happy new year. make it a good one.
tay,
xxxxxxxxxxx

even after all

hallo all, sorry i haven't been updating you! this year seems a bit of a burdon after all.

can not wait for the last few hours to end!

however, i have had several happy happy memories that i shall share with you..

1) i have learnt to steer clear of caring.

2) i have ventured longer walks

3) i have decided to go aubun

4) i appreciate the bleu sky and genuine fresh air

5) my head's a lot happier

6) i have sorted through my messy thoughts and i'm nearlly done

7) i have spent time with family

8) i have talked a lot more which is a miracle in itself

9) i am far more ready to face the world

10) i have become closer to tay

ciao bella, holly x

hope you all had a fabulous christmas!
i promise i will be doing a huge post in the next few days, i feel like i've been neglecting you all abit, everythings just been abit hectic lately.
au revoir, tay x

even though her head's a mess..

happy new;
1) smile

2) day

3) jumpers!

4) hair

5) guy

6) resolutions

7) friends

8) style

9) morals

10) year.

love holli x

it's ever soooo cold...

which means endless cups of tea and of course, SNOW!!!!!

i thought it would be nice to share with you some pics of the snow last night. I must say i felt like a toddler again when i saw how big the snow flakes were; me and my brothers got incredibly excited and raced outside to share the moment.


it was a really really great evening, truelly magical.
it's finally beginning too feel like christmas :) hope you all have a wonderful day tomorrow and that santa is generous to you all!.
merry merry christmas.
love and hugs, tay xxxxxx

happy birthday....

to my gorgeous little cozzz, oscar. :)

he's the big number six today, practically an old man if you ask me! this little lad as been through some tough times and i wish him all the happiness in the world.
happy birthday lovely, i love you.


afew snapshots through-out the years.
tay, xx

singing my life

havn't taken my gloves off all day today, it's super super freezing outside. looking out my window this morning the world was nothing but a soft white blanket as far as the eye could see and it made me think 'this is what it's all about', moments like this where the beauty of the world takes your breath away and all you can do is stand and just be. just be. i'm forever looking up at the sky on clear sunny days and it forever takes my breath away, i can't get enough of crisp clear bleu skies. i once heard that to love another you have to love yourself, and it always confused me; but i have recently realised, it's all in the process of learning how to love.
and that love, has to start with you.

tay, x

teapot and saucer.

'Lose an hour, gain an hour. This is your life and it's ending one minute at a time. If you wake up at a different time, in a different place, could you wake up as a different person?'

do you believe that?

x

keep me in mind

still not feeling content with my life, even though i've had the most amazing few days with my family. theres still something not right, and i can't put my finger on it. surellly at this age i should still feel that part of me thats ignorant towards feeling bleu,
tay.

chewing gum got stuck in my curly locks.

'i can't believe how you looked at me,

With your James Dean glossy eyes,

In your tight jeans with your long hair,

And your cigarette stained lies.'

just a few snap shots to capture winter in the still.
i have been extremely busy with 'living life,' for once, and i must admitt that I can not wait until 2010. what an eventful year it shall be!

im not sure what you guys will be up to, but i assume tay's and my 2010 will be full of deep discoveries, meaningful talks, cups of cocoa, lots of natural shots and of course vintage vintage vintage trinkets!

ciao bella, holly.

and i stood on my toes to catch a glimpse

been roaming around on flickr and have found a new photographer who has captured my heart with her views on the world and i would like to share afew of her photos with you all.

the colour of the balloons are just so magical and pure.
the photography is something to aspire too.
click to go to her photostream
have a great evening, tay.

pat-a-cake pat-a-cake

yes yes yes! i have indeed been in the kitchen for most of the morning and afternoon baking aload of cute cup cakes and rock cakes. i've had soo much fun, rocking out to the radio whilst eating more cake mixture then what goes into the oven. it's a shame i don't get to do this more often. anyway, here are afew shapshots of my day :)

preparing the cake mixture for the cup cakes

1 table spoon of cake mixture before it's popped into the oven to
rise :)
this was my all time favourite part. preparing the icing sugar and the butter cream.
i licked the bowl after (giggle)
after decorating them
these are my lovely rock cakes. smell soo good!
had such a great day!i'm hoping to do an inspiration post later on this evening, so for now TOODLES!
:)
tay, x

living just to find emotion.

source

it snowed today, which made my day all the more magical. obviously it didn't snow as much as in the picture but i can dream can't i?
with my cosins all day, along with my momma and my 2 brothers. it was a pretty special day, involving alot of laughs and a big chinese buffet which was uh-maaaazing. phoned miss mullinger this evening for a big chat which topped of the day very nicelly.
here are afew photos which are currently making me smile.

just searched through some old vinyls and found 'Journey - Don't stop believin'', such an incredible tune to brighten your day.
huge hugs, tay.

slippers for mittens, train tickets to no-where.

so not a good start to the day.

we walked about a mile to an abandoned bus stop which was infact rather nice.

ok, so we come onto the bus and sit, whilst deciding whether taking polaroids will be too loud? we did it anyway :).
had the biggest chat to last us a life time whilst drinking cups after cups of tea. watched 'seven pounds' which we recommend to anyone who wants a cosy night in with a box of tissues by their side; saddest film we've ever seen. we also came up with an idea, we wrote about a million goals on tiny slips of paper and mixed that all together, at the start of every day we pick one and thats our goal for the day. it's a truely great idea to achieve things you would never do normally or face the fears you've kept inside PLUS it's gurrr-ate fun and gives you something to look forward too. with much love, tay + holli.

walked in fields of gold

just combined a picture of me and holli and thought i'd share it with you :)
sweet dreams, tay x

ooh, i feel so bleu.

not in the best of moods today, i've been trying to find the charger for my cameraa, 'nikon D50', all day and no such luck!!! (i am on the verge of tears) me and hol are planning to do some photography tomorrow but without my camera i don't see how that will be possible :'(
here are afew pics of mine and holli's old/recent photography.

love this girl an incredible amount :)
hope these pictures cheer you up as much as they have me.
night, tay.